It has taken me a while to write a new blog post.
I can't say I have been too busy, just unmotivated. Might have something do with the weather, or working full time. The latter had me struggling with the time and energy as well as becoming painfully aware of all that I'm missing while at work.
For instance, during about a two week stretch while I drove to work every morning, I would pass a field of horses standing in the morning mist. They would all be waiting for the farmer to come feed them. It is a beautiful sight and one I longed to capture on film. However, I rarely gave myself enough time in the mornings to stop and take a photograph. Mind you, how much time is enough time?
But it was moments such as that where I would have a small-scale existential crisis. I have seen the same thing on the faces of the many of the other commuters while we feebly sit in traffic.
Now the weather is better, which always helps, nevertheless the problem still persist. When it comes to my turn driving the deliveries van I see the people walking the streets - a small gesture, a look or a glance will catch my attention and all I can do is sit an admire. I would love to stop and capture these scenes but I would struggle to explain this to my superiors.
There is no immediate profit to be made from such an endeavor - it is even a struggle to explain this to myself!
The sad acceptance that I have to spread my time between generating income for someone else and creating my own work can be galling at times.
To be in the situation where I can make enough income from my work to allow such freedom would be perfect. At the moment, I have to earn money in a more practical role.
At the moment.